I learned ...

I am yet to find someone or ‘A Friend’ whom I trust.  Someone who can listen without prejudice, offer advice without any hidden agenda / intents and provide a shoulder to cry on without expecting ‘payback’.  

I used to have one but geographical location and distance has made it impossible for us to be like before.  We do keep tab on each other like always but to “sit down, sharing our stories over coffee”, is something that we can’t afford to do now, given our busy schedule as working moms and housewives.

Friends are everywhere around you but having a buddy or a sister, in this case, is something so rare that sometimes you just give up trying to look for one.. or give up pretending ‘that’ someone is the one.  They judged you when you confide in them, their jealousy shows when you share your success stories and they silently cheer over your failure. 

I learned the hard way, every time.  Even at this age, almost more than 20 years after adolescence, I find it funny to watch from afar how people jeopardize trust and friendship that have been built for so many years over little things …  more often than not, I will just stand there and watch them being washed away.  

Sad, but not angry….