Of Heart and Mind

I realized this morning that I am filing every inch of my pants and blouse…. perfectly… with my flesh! (read : I am GROWING!!!... in size that is) sigh!!! I lost a few kgs during Ramadhan and I gained more than ‘a few kgs’ thereafter… I have 3 meals a day (without fail). and not forgetting the ‘munching moments’ in between. It was months since I last weigh myself on that little machine, which always gives me a heart attack every time I stepped on it. But I know the numbers are now ‘bigger’ – as in the value as opposed to the size – so I pushed the machine to the darkest corner of my storeroom. What you don’t know won’t hurt you… But what I know is…. I fill up my jeans PERFECTLY, meaning they have no rooms for my skin to breathe. Either the jeans shrink or my body yang dah inflate…. aiyyoohh. Sungguh susah hati ni. I just can’t stop from indulging myself with all the good food (read = chocolate, ice cream, Famous Amos, Starbucks… and not forgetting, my energy booster – rice!!!). Now, le